Lizaaaaay

complex?

2009-05-27T02:39:04Z

Kiss me once and then insistently call me a whore. What are you trying to do?

crackwhorespice @ 2009-02-13T17:35:00

2009-02-13T22:37:38Z

What if I don't want to be that strong and resilient girl you think I am and all I want to do is curl up with someone who knows me (good and bad) and just cry because it's all gotten to be too much.

sigh

2007-09-18T05:13:02Z

I wish my little mind would stop reeling so I could get some sleep. I'm going to crash & burn real quick but it's totally worth it. I wish I wasn't such a responsible adult - I'd be on the first plane out of here and crashing on Tabby's floor.

Me, lately

2007-05-12T15:04:27Z

Fine. Fine! I'm sure all the people who I haven't talked to in a year are wondering what the hell I'm doing with myself. And the people who i do talk to are bitching at me cuz I never update. Anyways. On to the last 8 months of my life

I finished up at Pitt, skin of my teeth goddamnit, but I have a degree in rocks. Moved home shortly thereafter and it's been trying but the rent's free. I got a job working for an engineering firm in Baltimore, hated it. Quit that after 2 weeks. I was out of work for another week and then landed in a law firm downtown. The people are great but sometimes I wonder if I'm getting anything right. There's some bullshit but not a whole bunch and the hours are insane. But I'm making a decent check, so that makes it a little worthwhile.

I had some ups and downs with friends right after I moved home but it's all basically worked out now. I hear from Britt when he calls me and work too much to care. I've made it out to Pittsburgh a few times over since I moved and will be back in early June. I don't know what I'd do without my IBK brothers, even now. Especially my little. And my big! who had a baby a few months back. I got to meet little Adriana and see her and DJ. That was great. It seems everyone's getting married and having kids - I know of 10 pregnant or new mothers and I'm sure that will rise. I've been to 3 weddings of my friends and more are coming up. It's insane. Tabby and I are doing as much of a summer concert series that we can manage considering I'm in DC and she's moving to Atlanta!! Yeah, I thought she'd be in Pittsburgh forever too. But I'm beyond happy for her and can't wait to get down there and check out the joint now that I'm working and have money to do such things.

I went a little stir-crazy a semester out so I've started on a certificate in Cartography and Geographic Information Systems at MC. I like it a lot so far but unfortunately there's nothing I can take over the summer. Not even the Bio class I wanted to take for "fun" cuz I'm insane. It's cool, I can catch up on all the scientific articles I've been stacking up and a few books too ;).

Dustin's pretty much off the face of my Earth, he popped into my little head the other week and I tried calling him but no dice. It's been at least a year since I've talked to him and probably a few since I've seen him. His cousin Pat found me on myspace and rumor has it D's happy and probably getting married soon. I'm happy for him. It's a little weird being the one before The One but whatcha gonna do. Sean's around when he's bored - it's cool to see him when he makes time for me. I've met a few guys here and there but no one stuck around so far, I'm doing my thing and seeing what happens - not really looking for anything but not adverse to whatever happens. I've found that's the attitude that's brought me the best luck ;).

Day to day it's pretty normal around here - get up, go to work, work is crazy or boring with no in-between, either work late or meet a friend for drinks or come home and play Wii with my nephew. He's an awesome kid, we've been spending a lot of time together (he's 9 now, yikes) partially cuz I'm schooling him in older stuff on the Wii (Super Mario Bros and World, Sonic) and partially cuz I need an excuse to build with Legos. The kid's bribing me out to WV to check out this rock he found, it's pretty awesome. He got a question right in school the other day because of a conversation we had about rocks. I love it. Speaking of which, I better get rollin' - I'm headed out there today to check out this rock and see my sister's new house - she just bought a house!! So I'm getting a bigger room in this one which is pretty sweet. Not gonna lie. Life is good.

Me, lately.

2007-02-03T15:43:03Z

Dead on.

2006-09-01T17:36:45Z

Lizi took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!

"Hopes that ties of affection and good-fellowship w..."

Click here to read the rest of the results.

I still gotta take the test...

2006-08-03T20:04:17Z

But you can call me alum.

my subconcious hates me

2006-07-31T06:24:13Z

Warm summer night. Country concert. It rained the same, my hair dried the same. Between that and the dream I had where you held me and kissed me like we were "trying it again" all over again I'm having a hard time.

I couldn't wait to get home tonight and shower that sensation from my skin. It's fleeting - hopefully I'll wake up and forget your face all over again.

shockingly true!

2006-07-12T16:54:40Z

i am open-minded!

How indie are you? test by ridethefader

You're pretty knowledgeable about music in general. You like indie music, sure, but that's only part of it.
You'll listen to any old shit as long as it sounds good to you. You're not snobby about music at all, you
just like what you like. How boring. Curiously, this makes you popular with the opposite sex.

...

2006-05-23T23:00:01Z

I am not a pretty girl.

Who the fuck was I trying to fool?

lately

2006-04-19T04:26:36Z

The more time passes, the harder I have to think to remember the good times. This is getting a whole lot easier. I no longer have the urge to write a huge "be all, end all" letter, those thoughts have just faded. This getting better thing is a lot more natural then it used to be.

It's cute that you have to keep me around just a little bit, but it's getting way old.

because i didn't have issues before...

2006-04-12T16:20:34Z

Every time I hear that stupid "i like to move it move it" song I have the urge to watch Madagascar. Crazy weird animals and their funny songs. Sigh.

crackwhorespice @ 2006-04-07T10:27:00

2006-04-07T14:33:56Z

Dated Outside Your Race: Innocent
Given a Hickey: Guilty
Had a One Night Stand: Innocent
Hooked Up on the First Date: Guilty
Singing in the Shower: Innocent
Gotten a Hickey: Guilty

Spit in Someone's Drink: Innocent
Played with Barbie: Guilty
Made Someone Cry: Guilty
Opened your Christmas Presents Early: Innocent
Lied to a Friend: Guilty
Seen the Goonies More Than 10 Times: Innocent
Played a Computer Game for More Than 5 Hours: Innocent
Ran Through the Sprinklers Naked: Innocent
Ate Food That Fell on the Floor: Guilty
Went Outside Naked: Guilty
Got Caught Cheating: Innocent
Got Caught Having Sex: Guilty
Flashed Somebody: Guilty
Mooned Somebody: Guilty
Been On Stage: Guilty
Been On Stage Naked or Close To It: Innocent
Been In A Parade: Guilty

Been In A School Play: Guilty
Drank Beer: Guilty
Gotten Detention: Guilty
Been On A Plane: Guilty
Been On A Cruise: Innocent
Broken Into A House: Innocent
Gotten A Tattoo: Innocent
Gotten Piercings: Guilty
Gotten Into A Fist Fight: Guilty

Gotten Into A Shouting Match: Guilty
Swallowed Sea/Pool Water: Guilty
Spun Yourself In Circles to Get Dizzy on Purpose: Guilty
Laughed So Hard it Hurt: Guilty
Tripped On Your Own Feet: Guilty
Had Sex With More Than One Person In a Day: Innocent
Cried Yourself to Sleep: Guilty
Cried in Public: Guilty
Thrown Up in Public: Guilty

Been in Love: Guilty
Lied to Your Parents: Guilty
Skipped Class: Guilty
Cried So Hard You Threw Up: Guilty

crackwhorespice @ 2006-03-29T00:08:00

2006-03-29T05:17:21Z

I hate throwing pictures away.

I came across the three pictures I took when I was in Daytona. I'll never forget how alone I felt, how unwanted I was. How I cried myself to sleep every fucking night I was down there because you resented me for showing up. You found reasons to stay at work late instead of coming home and hanging out with your "best friend" and for that I will never forgive you. Your cousins were better to me. You didn't even hold me until the day I left. Maybe you were thankful that I'd be gone? Never again.

It's time to admit something:

I regret going to Daytona. I'm sure that made my mom happy.

crackwhorespice @ 2006-03-24T09:44:00

2006-03-24T14:46:53Z

I like this one, so do it. And I'll actually do it back this time. Ugh. I need to catch up with my comments.

1. name:
2. birthday:
3. place of residence:
4. what makes you happy:
5. what are you listening to now/have listened to last:
6. do you read my LJ:
7. if you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
8. an interesting fact about you:
9. are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. favourite place to be:
11. favourite lyric:
12. best time of the year:

RECOMMEND
1. a film:
2. a book:
3. a band, a song and an album:

PLUS
1. one thing you like about me:
2. two things you like about yourself:
3. put this in your LJ so I can tell you what I think of you.

crackwhorespice @ 2006-02-24T16:22:00

2006-02-24T22:05:48Z

Sort by song:
Number of songs: 2570
First song: Alkaline Trio - '97
Last song: Brian Setzer Orchestra - Zoot Suit Riot

Sort by time:
Shortest Song: Clerks - Jay's Chant
Longest song: Steve Lawler - Essential Mix live at Passion

Sort by artist
First Artist: 'n Sync
Last Artist: The Young Dubliners

Sort by album
First Album: Metallica - "...And Justice For All"
Last Album: 311 - "You Wouldn't Believe (single release)

Sort By Number of Plays
Most Plays: Eric Clapton - Wonderful Tonight (46)
Least Plays: 2 Live Crew - Shake that Ass, Bitch (0)

Search
"Sex": 21
"Death": 6
"Love": 89
"You": 289
"Heart": 24

yup, that's about right

2006-02-19T20:27:57Z

You Are Animal

A complete lunatic, you're operating on 100% animal instincts.
You thrive on uncontrolled energy, and you're downright scary.
But you sure can beat a good drum.
"Kill! Kill!"

The Muppet Personality Test

The good, the bad and the ugly... do me twice!

2006-02-16T23:12:19Z

do me!
do me twice!

I beat Moisty by .1! Ha!

2006-02-10T06:17:41Z

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	7.2
Mind:	7.5
Body:	7.3
Spirit:	8.3
Friends/Family:	5.3
Love:	2.9
Finance:	6.6
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

crackwhorespice @ 2006-02-08T21:18:00

2006-02-09T02:20:36Z

Dear Overactive Imagination,
I hate you.
Thanks!
Love,
Lizi

crackwhorespice @ 2006-01-30T17:46:00

2006-01-30T22:47:41Z

Who gets a phone call when he's excited about his new phone working?

This girl.

God I'm a dork.

freaking out

2006-01-10T05:23:18Z

being stupid.

i need to figure out how to back off.

he's going to get real bored of me real soon.

are you really that surprised?

2006-01-07T20:53:32Z

You Are A Margarita Martini

You are a full on partier, with a good deal of sass and spunk.
You're always friendly and welcoming - and very tolerant of obnoxious drunks.

You should never: Drink and dance. The pictures will be everywhere the next morning!

Your ideal party: Is loud, with good music and fun drinking games.

Your drinking soulmates: Those with a Dirty Martini personality

Your drinking rivals: Those with a Classic Martini personality

What Flavor Martini Are You?

I will begin again

2006-01-04T01:37:28Z

It seems like every year I start an entry with that subject line. But I'm serious this time. Cuz Lord knows this time last year I could barely function out of heartbreak and utter failure. I had just gotten back from a shitty bowl trip in Arizona and had just started to attempt to piece my life back together. And in that next year, I had attempted to fix things with Dustin once again, only to fail miserably. We're not even friends anymore. It's just interesting to see what difference a year makes and how things will always work out for the best in the end. And yes, it breaks my heart to have lost one of my closest friends, but in saying that I realize that he really never cared about my interests or loved me. Talk about a one-sided friendship.

But anyways!! The past is what's behind and I think I'm slowly but surely getting over it. He calls, my heart doesn't jump. He doesn't call and I don't spend the night freaking out or driving around the greater Montgomery County area trying to find him. The love that was once in my heart is quietly fading. It's kinda nice.

There's a guy I really care about that treats me really well and is a very dear friend, but that's moving slowly (if at all, in that direction) and I like it that way. So yeah. That does make it a wee bit easier. Not gonna lie.

This year is a year of changes and I'm really excited for that. Already in a gym/crunches routine. Eating better, losing weight. Quit smoking cigarettes in August, cut back a lot on my drinking. Spending more time with the rocks and with school. I have a really hard semester ahead of me but I know I can do well. Getting counseling (holy shit, i'm admitting it), staying on top of things. Holding my dear friends close and getting rid of poisonous things that only waste my time. Reading more good books, watching good movies. Staying on top of the world. Being an informed human with well-developed politics and ideas for how the way the world should work. I really am an intellectual at heart and I think I've lost sight of that lately. Being close with my family and not using Saturday night drinking as an excuse not to go out to McKees' Rocks for church. Nothing makes me happier than being with them. I need to call my cousin. Things are going to be amazing and I love the way this year has started.

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before? let Dustin go
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? i'm sure I made some halfditch resolution to lose weight but I'm really keeping it this year
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? nope
4. Did anyone close to you die? nope
5. What countries did you visit? CANADIA, eh? Loved it.
6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005? a peaceful heart
7. What date(s) from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? Dec 25, 2005. Some random day in July, date unknown, situation never forgotten. August 26.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? falling out of love, letting things go
9. What was your biggest failure? grades
10. Did you suffer any illness or injury? nothing too major
11. What was the best thing you bought? i really dig my mp3 player, constant music really does improve my general demeanor
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Laura, she really does stick behind me and came all the way up here to pick me up for 311. Betsy, cuz lord knows i couldn't get in enough trouble without you.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? this whole IBK mess
14. Where did most of your money go? school
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? being home for christmas, 311!
16. What song will always remind you of 2005? 311 - Give Me A Call, Unity, Omaha Stylee
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? much happier
ii. thinner or fatter? thinner
iii. richer or poorer? poorer
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? schoolwork
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? wasting time caring about Dustin
20. How will you be spending Christmas? spent it with my family in Rockville
New Years? Jaci's Wedding!
22. Did you fall in love in 2005? fell out, got twitterpated.
23. How many one-night stands? zero. i don't do one night stands.
24. What was your favorite TV program? Desperate Housewives
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? I don't hate. Disgusted by, maybe. Don't really have much to say to. Don't hate.
26. What was the best book you read? DaVinci Code - Dan Brown, Harry Potter (the new one), yeah I'm a sucker. Any recommendations?
27. What was your greatest musical discovery? Alkaline Trio/Goldfinger are pretty cool
28. What did you want and get? digital camera, trip out west and to canada
29. What did you want and not get? a real goodbye.
30. What was your favorite film of this year? Day After Tomorrow was hilarious.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? Got really depressed, dragged my roommates out. Turned 22.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? My own car? Who knows.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005? I like jeans and t-shirts, but with kitten heels and pretty earrings.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Bubba Sparxxx
36. What political issue stirred you the most? This no-longer-an-actual war in Iraq. The demise of our country. Increased fuel prices. Handling of the situation in New Orleans. What else did Bush fuck up?
37. Who did you miss? I thought I missed Dustin. It was just the idea of him.
38. Who was the best new person you met? Broxton in the lab is pretty cool.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005: Win some, lose some.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: "From chaos comes clarity." - 311 - "From Chaos"

but I can still be surprised ;)

2005-12-30T08:10:02Z